Contradiction.

Been to hell and now I'm back.
I lost myself along the way.
You can't stay the same forever
They always used to say;

It's quite hard to lose someone you love
And to find out that all you had was a lie.
It's hard to forget about it all,
But you can't just let yourself die.

How am I supposed to move on
When all I know is how to be with you?
How can anyone expect me to be strong
When the reasons for my smile now are so few?

I know that I'm surrounded by a lot of people
But which one of them actually cares?
Who's the one who'll always be there
And help me live through my nightmares?

I'm already used to being on my own
And that just makes me a little bit stronger
'cause I don't expect anything form anyone,
they'll only try to make my life seem grayer.

Something I wrote a few weeks ago. Not that good actually and a bit contradictive..